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Hi, and welcome to my website.  This site was built to show my interests, keep track of my travels, and various other random things I've picked up over the years.
Feel free to look round, either for laughs or just to find out more about me and my outlook on... anything.

Some questions, to get things started.  Bonus internet points if you get the where the questions came from.

There are a couple of ways to look through these questions.  First is as a game, the questions go round a group and you are not allowed to repeat your own answer.  The second is for introspection.  Ask yourself these questions each year as a metric to see how you are progressing through life.
Some of these questions, if answered honestly, do not give 'nice' answers.  Some of it due to limitations of society merged with the impossible standards in fantasy, that everyone should be able to be a perfect hero.  Some of it will be due just being human, and having an ego.
  • Who are you?
    • How do you define yourself?  Through name? Family? Job? Achievements? Skills?  Intents? Goals? Who am I to myself, to close friends and family, to others?  What is your own definition of self and what do you take from others definition of you?  How much of that 'others' definition do you accept?
Each of these answers is different, and all of these answers change throughout your life.  Sometimes slowly as you grow, sometimes quickly through an intense experience.
Who am I... I am a quiet tinkerer, geek, someone who prefers the easy path but can push to the hard one (always like to at least see where the hard path is all the time, though that may be relative and only assumes two paths - probably wrong).  I like reading how stories come together, the intent of the author and the intent of the characters; I seek understanding of their patterns (for example, the difference between Gene Roddenberry's Andromeda Coda and how the series went on after the main writer was forced out.  A collector of science fiction and science fact trivia, the more obscure and cutting edge the better.  I try and take this pattern recognition and apply it to people.  It's surprising the insights you can gain on people (I'm guessing due to most 'fleshed out' fictional characters having at least one real person as inspiration for them).  I am a watcher.

Does my family define me? No.  They provided guidance on the paths available, gave opportunities for experience, but I am not defined by lineage.  What about work? So far this has actually been backwards.  I have used my definition for finding work, and used it as environment to apply myself instead of allowing the role to dictate my life and desires.  I am not 'my job'.  My achievements?  These are a product of myself.  I (try) not to do things just to inflate my ego or show off to others, however ego is part of the human condition so at least part of myself is defined by what I have accomplished.   Achievements should be a legacy for who you have been, and not dictate who you are or who you are going to be (yay contradiction.  darn.).  Skills are a result of your previous self.  What you have learnt and kept (whereas achievements are manifestations of the result of previous self).  Combined they can help define who you were, but not necessarily who you are.  My intentions are probably the best realisation of who I am now, but only when combined with how much drive and commitment there is behind them.  This only works if intentions are able to be defined through reason and not through excuses (majority of reasons should be able to be shown before the intent.  Excuses tend to rely on what has happened afterwards to hold up, which show lack of planning and therefore intent).  Goals are longer term view on intents.  They show who you are trying to be, or at least how you intend to become your next self.
Who am I to others?  The quiet one, but not necessarily the 'quiet type' that needs to have an eye kept on them (at least not all the time).  Good intentions, but needs a little more 'oomph' to meet all of them.
Now read the main answer I've put, see how much I have used the above to write my own definition.
  • What do you want?
    • As opposed to what do I need.  Are these wants really mine, or what I think I want based on others expectations?
A life where the hard moral choices should not have to exist.  Should you boycott XYZ because ABC, or use/buy it because your boycott will make no difference to XYZ or ABC?  Should you have choose between two awful options because 'others' have decided that is all there is.  I guess this translates to 'I want other people to stop being crappy to each other'.
I want to see a basic, universal care and standard of living that is open and transparent, hard to corrupt or misuse.  I want a society where is ingrained as a basic right to be allowed to be yourself provided you are not demonstrably harming another.
I want a migraine free weekend.
I want to not feel alone, even when in a room full of people.
I want a lightsabre!
  • Why are you here?
    • What do i believe my purpose is? What do others believe it is? What does the universe think it it?
I have always been here (sorry, couldn't help myself).  I'm here because I'm still working out my place in everything, and what I can be.  I'm here because I've pushed myself to be, but being honest, only far enough to reach vague short term goals based on fears on how results will be perceived.  I am looking to change this.
In the greater scheme, 'we are the universe made manifest, here to explore itself'.
To have fun.
From others, to be part of the local cog.  Do enough work to keep the social machine going.  Just one among many, all the same.
From the universe.  That little dot believes it can think, that it has reason, just because it's figured out words.  How precious.  Oh look, another shiny.
  • Where are you going?
    • Are you heading towards your purpose, if you have one.  Is your path being changed so someone else can get to theirs easier?
Right now, nowhere.  I seem to have reached a plateau in my development on most levels.  Most of this is due to me getting complacent - see above to working on changing that.  Some is due to being distracted (mix of own, and intentional from others).  Right now I need to work out where I want to go, and work backwards from there. 
  • Do you have anything worth living for?
    • The first external question.  All the others are focusing on me directly, this is the big 'drive' question.
My cats, my family, a few close friends.
Learning new models, stories, skills.
Making a difference to how people grow up - especially the young (Scouts, the kung fu kids/family classes I help at).  Too much emphasis is put on what you learn instead of how, too much on enforcing 'tradition'* and reinforcing existing and cliched cliques, and too much on making sure 'everyone wins everything' - that is that only sporting prowess matters, or only slightly more open-minded that academic prowess is the only other alternative.  Strangely enough it seems to be politicians that have worked this out, in that they are neither way inclined but still successful.
If the next generation is going to survive this one they must be more than drones.  They need to know how to learn new things, how to get on with people who are not like them, and both that there are winners and that no competition is equal (intelligence test, climbing tree, fish vs monkey...).  If i can make even a small difference in this then that's better than just accepting a bleak inevitable.

*Tradition. Noun. Something that is broken that either is not being fixed, or no-one wants to fix.
  • Whom do you serve?
    • Are my actions and decision my own?  How much of my life is really mine?
I am forced to serve the government, either through working for a company or through self employment it all leads to the same place.
Through gratitude (help through my own youth) I serve the Scout movement, especially my original group.  The debt I have for their existence and help I cannot repay in full, so I do what I can, when I can.
Through expectation I serve the kung fu school I train at.  Admittedly the weakest of my binds, however my continued voluntary assistance would cause noticeable short term issues for the school's kids and family classes if I were to stop with no notice.  My pride of self would not let me put the school through that. 
Through responsibility of ownership - my cats.
These three I enjoy, and serve willingly.
I serve my housemates.  Making time to help round, not unduly making issues for them.
My own curiosity.  My need to learn more while not external as the question would initially read, is a part of myself that I must serve.  There is a noticeable difference (at least to me) to how I feel, and how I act if I am not in a position to learn something new & interesting for any substantial amount of time.

  • Whom do you trust?
    • Most of this question is based from the one above.  Do I trust the people who have the keys to my decisions in their hands?
The most general answer - I can trust individual people.  Organisations, less so.
Governments, corporations, I have little trust (or rather, I trust that they will act almost exclusively in self interest, regardless of consequence to others).
Scouts. I trust the local and regional levels.  Above that the political red tape starts pulling on the intended direction of the charity (sometimes with good reason).
Kung fu. Yes.  The school is small, does not worry about martial politics, and does not to this date obfuscate details or facts.
Cats. Cute fluffy balls of sharp pointy evil.  Yup I trust them.
Housemates.  I trust them to be them. One is/was (depending which day of week) a sales person.  South Park Prius owner.
Curiosity.  Strangely, no. Sometimes it goes too far, things get close to obsessive about a subject.  I need to keep an eye on it, and sometimes force myself to another topic.